2 June 2013
This quoted from a book I read “The Theft of the Spirit – A Journey
to Spiritual Healing” by Carl A. Hammerschag,
“When I first met you I was struggling with my cerebral
palsy. I needed to be “supercrip,” but my journey then was strew with fear,
anger and sorrow. Over the past several years it finally dawned on me that I
really could dance to my own music – that’s what led to the recovery of my
spirit
In the old days, I cried for my losses in a voice that was
so shaky it would never be lifted up in a church choir to sing glory to God...
I cried for loss of hands that so often I could not control.
Hands that would never draw paint or create. Hands that gave me shame and that I
desperately tried to conceal.
I cried for my legs that lacked grace. I walk like a goose
or like falling-down drunk. I cried for ballets I would never dance and
mountains I would never climb.
Because they feel my caring and I think now that God hears my
labored song and welcome it.
My hands? They still can’t draw but they do create. They create
loving connection when I reach to touch someone in need.
As for my legs, sure they stumble and I fall, but grace I now
treasure in a different way – I’m dancing through my life aware of my
excitement in the journey and the adventure in every step.
I have still not totally accepted. I still hurt and cry, but
awareness of my limits doesn’t consume me anymore because I finally see that
the real hurt is not what others inflict but what I do to myself. For not accepting
the me that is, which is beautiful and still growing.”
As Dragon Willow I hope I get there